禁忌or迷信?

昨晚为爸爸做三七, 来了两个不速之客, 爸爸的"老板"贤伉丽.

虽然说华人对丧事有避忌及pantang, 但此两人的"避忌"真的让我佩服. 爸爸去世后几天, 他们的儿子已接到我家的通知. 如果不是姐姐摇个电话要他们的一个交代, 他们应该会等三年后才来吧. 他们两人穿着大红而来(像样吗?), 我想他们应该也是穿红内裤吧. 难道去丧府至哀, 衰气就一定黏着你一世?

进到来, 也没说要烧香给我爸爸, 甚至连我家的神台都不敢望一眼. 难道他们怕爸爸会显身吗? 坐下来了, 开始解释, 说如果他们一早知道爸爸的死讯, 就算是年初一也赶来. 哈, 会来才怪, 也不必等到现在, 就算真的年初一出席丧礼, 会是一个很大的牺牲吗? 还说不会看短讯啦, 不知道消息(可笑的是, 女的一面讲, 男的一面很忙的悄悄读短讯和回短讯). 讲讲下, 竟然问我妈, 爸爸是坐着死还是睡着死...wtf, 这有那么重要吗?

人, 睁大双眼说瞎话, 面不改色. 一个字, 服. 假惺惺, 我真正地体会到了.

Have U ever c ppl that wearing RED to visit some1 that just happened to lose their love 1? Have U ever knw ppl that is SO pantang that so scare to go any places that got connection to the dead and so reluctant to just show some condolence? Have U ever c ppl lying like telling the truth? Have U ever ask ppl that what was the dieing pose of ur XX? Sitting or lying? Who r they? My dad's boss n his wife. WTF...

猜一猜のGuess What

猜一猜, 这是什么花? Try to guess, what flower is this?

猜一猜, 这又是什么? Guess again, what is this?

路边的野花のUnknown Flowers

今天去了父亲的灵塔处, 第一次发现原来野花也很漂亮, 难怪会有路边的野花不要採啦. 可惜的是不知道它的芳名, 有人知道吗?

I went to my father's place this morning. Suddenly I found that just outside the toilet, there are many of these kind of flowers. Isn't it pretty? Too bad I don't knw the name of it. Any1 can tell me?

它的叶子有如葱, 条状形.
Its leaves just look like anion leaves, long and narrow.

种在地上, 不到20cm. Planted on the floor, not even reach 20cm.

至少看到它能让我平静. They gave me a moment of peace.

梦のDream

这是梦吗?

有人可以叫醒我吗?
活在现实里
但很渴望是睡梦中
思绪不停的来
誓不放过
用尽全力
得来一片空白
有人, 可以叫醒我吗?

I can sleep I can eat, but my mind is restless. It's flooding me. Is this just a dream? Can it be a dream? Gosh, I hope it is. Anyone? Anyone please wake me up?

我的父亲走了のGoodBye Dad...

人会有一死, 我也经常会想当我的亲人死去时我会如何做. 想归想, 当真正发生时, 那是多么的讽刺. 我想不到父亲就酱的走了, 就是酱, 也没留下什么话.

年30晚, 还没到团圆饭的时候, 我与姐姐买完东西回家, 父亲就心痛坐在外面, 母亲与哥哥在一旁担心的看着. 在24小时诊疗所看了一轮, 为防万一, 就把父亲载到大医院去. 姐姐陪父亲量血压, 而我就去办登记. 戏剧化的, 当我在登记时, 护士跑出来喊 "code blue", 叫登记小姐通知医生. 我看着登记小姐, 她也看着我, 然后她叫我赶快进去.

不会是, 不会是. 我一面想一面跑去. 但在我内心我可感到是的,是的. 只见姐姐哭着看着父亲被抢救, 我只能紧抱着她, 把她带出去. 将近一小时的抢救, 我从害怕, 担心, 希望, 绝望的心情中一直来回打转. 耳边一着传来医护人员抢救的呼叫声, 从CPR, 强心针到电击压,我都清楚的知道他们在我父亲身上干什么.

最后看到的, 只是父亲死鱼般的眼神, 不会起来, 不会说话了. 哭, 我想哭出来, 大声的叫醒我父亲, 但我只能做到的只是让泪水流下来, 发出依依啊啊的声音.

我,哥哥和二姐跪着接我父亲回来, 而大姐从Ipoh赶回来, 要跪着进来, 一切都可在连续剧中看到.

望着家外突然多出的棺材, 为什么和怎么可能一直在我脑海里响起. 泪水也不知觉的流下. 每次睡醒时, 我都想可以的话就酱睡下去, 因为睡醒了所有事情又再我脑海里重演一轮. 为我父亲诵经时, 我要逼自己不想或开着眼睛, 因为一切事情都会很清楚的出现在我眼前.

为什么, 十万个为什么. 但又能如何? 心中挤满了不愤, 不满和伤心. 但又能如何? 上天安排如此, 我只能受了. 母亲身为未亡人, 心身上所受的何止是我的千倍. 我只愿我母亲能放开一切, 健康平安.

Ironic, things can happen just like this, n the worst is ntg u can do. Yes, the worst thing just happened right b4 the cny, my father passed away. I knw my father will nvr come back, but deep in my heart I refuse to accept it. Most of the time I just stare at ntg n my mind is just a blank. If I allow anythings to cross my mind, the whole incident will just play back again. I wish I can shout or even cry aloud, but what I manage to do is just let the tear dropped by my face.

I feel angry, reluctant and sad. But what can I do? Everything is just like normal after my father's funeral. The Earth wont stop moving or the sky will rain in red because of this. I have to go on. But the lost is always there. Anything I can wish now is for my mum to stay strong n healthy.

芒果蛋糕荔芝味のMango cake

芒果蛋糕, 还没吃就流口水了. 今天是外甥的生日, 二姐买了这个蛋糕, 简单的庆祝一番.
Mango cake, delicious and makes my mouth water.. Today is my nephew's birthday, my sis bought a cake to celebrate it.

叫他笑, 他竟然笑成这样 = =.

lol ask him to smile he gave this...

香甜的芒果味, 软软的蛋糕, 而我竟然吃到荔芝味@@...太想吃荔芝了?

Yummy~~I love cake! But it's weird that I tasted laichi flavour in this cake.

再回味一下还没进肚子时的生日蛋糕.

Just go n try one.

平平安安的夜晚のSilent 9

圣诞节, 我是没庆祝的, 但蛮喜欢这时期的气氛, 轻松, 平静, 温馨. 不知道为何, 今年的圣诞会比较冷清. 可能是没什么朋友回来吧. 本来还以为又是会呆在家里的, 静静的听Sarah的圣诞歌, 悄悄的度过又一个佳节. 结果是全家出动, 去办年货. 才哪几小时, 就用了近200了. 买不多, 只是三样东西.
X'mas, a lovely, peaceful & lonely day for me. Although I don't celebrate it, but I quite like the feeling for this special day. At 1st I thought will be same as last few years, just sitting alone at home & listen to my favorite X'mas song (this year will b Sarah Mclachlan-Wintersong), but at the end went out with my family to buy some clothes for the coming cny. In just 2 hours, i spent almost 200 for 3 things.

休闲运动鞋, RM99.
Walking shoes.

是时候换新的牛仔裤了, RM60.
It's time for me to buy new jeans.

贴身衣物, RM26+.
Somethings only my future wife can see.

越南☆Vietnamの我爱沙吧-1★I Love Sapa-1

沙吧, 离河内蛮远, 所以选坐8小时的夜班火车, 一路睡到沙吧.
Sapa is quite far from Hanoi, so I chose to take 8 hours sleeper, sleep sleep sleep...
四人豪华车厢, 都很干净及舒适, 只不过狭窄了一点. 而厕所就......
4 ppl "luxury" cabin, decent and comfortable, although it's a bit crowded. For the toilet part, hmm...

狭窄的走道. A very narrow kaki lima.










14号车厢, 来回都坐它. 清晨的河内火车站.
No 14 carriage.

到达老街火车站接近早上5点, 然后再坐van车直上沙吧, 所以沿途可以看到日出.
About 5am I arrived at Lao Cai, then took a van to Sapa, along the journey can have a good view of sun rise.

到了沙吧, 一看到这些景色, 我就立刻爱上沙吧了. 美丽的山景, 清新的空气(如果此地不是开始商业化了, 空气会更好). 这里的温度是介于10~18°C.
Wow, I can say I LOVE SAPA! Look at the view, magnificent! Fresh air (if there r no modern vehicles here, that'll be great) and there is so cold at here (10~18°C).










菜园及梯田, 加上无边山色.
Natural farms and terraces.

卡卡村, 黑苗族收费旅游景点.
CatCat Cultural Village, all about Black Miller (Black Miao).

美丽的梯田, 只可惜现在不是丰收时期.
Beautiful terraces, too bad it's not a harvest session now.











苗族人的刺绣闻名于世, 在这里可亲眼见识到, 你要买时记得杀价. 我拍照时都是偷偷摸摸的, 而且拍完立刻闪人, 不然她们可会向你收拍照费(不是全部苗人啦)或拉着你卖东西.
Millers r fomous of their stitching skill. But remember that when U want to take thier photo, pls ask, if not they may charge U or keep selling their stuffs to U(or U can curi-curi take their photo and then sim yan, I did that ^^).










一些在卡卡村售卖的商品. Some of the goodies U can buy at here.










苗族的小孩, 有些穿整套衣, 有些只穿衣不穿裤, 有的干脆不穿.
Their children, some will wear properly but some like to be naked.

小小年纪, 就已经会帮妈妈雕石雕了.
This small girl, I think around 5~6 years old already helping her mum to sculpt. What did U do when U were her age?

漂亮可爱的小石雕师. Aren't her adorable?

很多小孩会跟着游客, 然后可爱的对你笑. 当你有笑回时, 他们都会从包包拿出东西向你销售. 你可看得出这个小女孩在做什么吗?
Some kidz here like to follow tourist, and then will show their innocent smile. If U give respond, they will start selling things to U liao. What do U think this girl r doing?

柳暗花明又一村, 走走下梯田不见了, 竟然来到了竹林, 凉风习习, 清新的空气.
Suddenly terraces gone, and I walked into a place full of bamboo.

不单有竹林, 瀑布也有. Waterfall some more!