Monday, March 9, 2009

我的老婆们のMy Wives

这是我第一只赚钱买的腕表, 2年前在过年前关丹买的. Fossil Twist Series ME1005, 全自动, 不需要电池, 摇晃就可以了. 全钢身, 十分的重, 按钮式扣带.
This is my 1st watch that I spent with my own salary, bought it 2 years ago b4 cny at Kuantan MegaMall. Fossil Twist Series ME1005, a mechanical watch, all U need to do is just swing or move ur hand, no need battery. Made of stainless steel with fold over clasp, quite heavy.

买了大婆, 忍不住又要了2妾. 去年在JJ买的Fossil Big Tic BG1079. 真皮表带, 磨沙钢表. 特别的是表盘有图案一直不停的变换, 但蛮吃电的.
After havin my 1st wife, 2nd will not be a problem. Fossil Big Tic BG1079, bought it last year at JJ. Brushed stainless steel case and genuine leather strap. The pattern at the dial will keep changing but it's quite high power consumption.

近来需要一点刺激及安慰, 也想到钱到死时是带不走的, 何苦压抑呢? 一不小心, 3妾就酱把它从1U带回家了. Police Rogue Dual Time 11745MSB/02M, 全钢身但很轻, 按钮式扣带, 有漂亮的日期显示. 特点在有两个时间轮, 可以同时设定两个不同地方的时间.
I kinda need some excitement and comfort lately and U cant bring ur $ also when U die, so y suppress the desire? I just bought my 3rd wife at 1U few days ago...accidentally. Police Rogue Dual Time 11745MSB/02M, a stainless steel body with fold over clasp, very light and has a date display on the dial. A unique design with dual sub-dials, U can set 2 different time zones at the same time.

Friday, March 6, 2009

从前& nOw

念念往生咒, 回向于众生. 从前念咒时经常观想给一切于往生了的众生. 如今竟然须加入父亲, 往往一观想时, 心会"磅"的一声, 一切思绪涌起. 想到了, 我又自动的把它压下, 有几深就几深. 我可以把它埋多深多久?

Usually when I pray, I will think of the ppl or more precisely those dead ppl, for their good. I cant believe that now I have to put my father in also. Every time I think of it, my heart will just BANG and OUCH. For instant, I bury it deep inside automatically. How deep and how long can I bury it?

Thursday, February 26, 2009

可笑.可悲

请详细读了以上文章才往下看.

再读.


你可认同郭史光宏的见解吗?


以下是我及我的同事们的读后感.


曾主编,


阅读了于23/2/09在编者.作者.读者, 郭史光宏的“齐齐来看小学课本”后, 我觉得真的是孰不可忍. 作者文章中提出的四个重点: 五年级华文课本第6课及三年级华文课本第35课的内容不实.


五年级华文课本第6课-我家的牵牛花

作者写到, 他不曾见过倒着开的牵牛花, 而且也曾上网搜查过, 并一口咬定世界上没有倒着开的牵牛花就攻击课文的内容与真实有出入. 我认为作者可能不是十分留意身边的事物或上网搜查资料的方式有问题, 网上有那么多倒着开的牵牛花图片, 他竟然说没看到. 事实胜于雄辩, 话不多说,有图为证.














三年级华文课本第35课-小雨

作者谦虚的提到自己或许天生愚蠢和没有想象力, 无法把细雨落下的情景与轻纱联想在一块儿, 实在令人感慨的是, 不只是作者本身, 如今莘莘学子, 虽然生在热带雨林, 却大部分是在温室中长大的小花, 到处都是钢骨森林, 缺乏与大自然接触的机会, 以至孤陋寡闻. 作者应该没见过小雨或只遇过大雨. 当天空下起小雨, 尤其是丝丝小雨, 而且是一阵阵的, 有风刮过时, 你真的可以看到有如一面面轻纱从天空飘落. 课文作者形容得十分贴切.


教师们为了让学生理解课文中抽象的情景而绞尽脑汁, 默默耕耘, 有苦自知, 还莫名其妙地被套上骗子这罪名, 实在不该. 作者所谓的个人意见, 无形中抹杀了所有教育工作者所付出的辛劳, 也侮辱了编写课文作者的智慧, 真叫人痛心.


无可否认, 有些课本及作业内容会出错, 但也不能把自己认为对的, 不事先求证, 就毫无根据的作出攻击, 这样对编写课文的作者, 以及突然无辜被套上骗子罪名的教师们和无端端成为傻子的学生们是很不公平的. 作者非但不是以事论事, 反而变成了误人子弟, 误导读者, 其中更包括了家长, 也破坏了教育工作者的名誉. 也可以说想要行侠仗义但却变成造谣惑众. 就算是鸡蛋里挑骨头, 也要找对骨头. 真是“笑死人不赔命—莫丢人”. 我恳请曾主编务必把我的读后感传达给郭史光宏兄, 也希望他能对此作出澄清. 此乃是教师们的一致心声. 谢谢.



Saturday, February 14, 2009

禁忌or迷信?

昨晚为爸爸做三七, 来了两个不速之客, 爸爸的"老板"贤伉丽.

虽然说华人对丧事有避忌及pantang, 但此两人的"避忌"真的让我佩服. 爸爸去世后几天, 他们的儿子已接到我家的通知. 如果不是姐姐摇个电话要他们的一个交代, 他们应该会等三年后才来吧. 他们两人穿着大红而来(像样吗?), 我想他们应该也是穿红内裤吧. 难道去丧府至哀, 衰气就一定黏着你一世?

进到来, 也没说要烧香给我爸爸, 甚至连我家的神台都不敢望一眼. 难道他们怕爸爸会显身吗? 坐下来了, 开始解释, 说如果他们一早知道爸爸的死讯, 就算是年初一也赶来. 哈, 会来才怪, 也不必等到现在, 就算真的年初一出席丧礼, 会是一个很大的牺牲吗? 还说不会看短讯啦, 不知道消息(可笑的是, 女的一面讲, 男的一面很忙的悄悄读短讯和回短讯). 讲讲下, 竟然问我妈, 爸爸是坐着死还是睡着死...wtf, 这有那么重要吗?

人, 睁大双眼说瞎话, 面不改色. 一个字, 服. 假惺惺, 我真正地体会到了.

Have U ever c ppl that wearing RED to visit some1 that just happened to lose their love 1? Have U ever knw ppl that is SO pantang that so scare to go any places that got connection to the dead and so reluctant to just show some condolence? Have U ever c ppl lying like telling the truth? Have U ever ask ppl that what was the dieing pose of ur XX? Sitting or lying? Who r they? My dad's boss n his wife. WTF...

Sunday, February 8, 2009

猜一猜のGuess What

猜一猜, 这是什么花? Try to guess, what flower is this?

猜一猜, 这又是什么? Guess again, what is this?

路边的野花のUnknown Flowers

今天去了父亲的灵塔处, 第一次发现原来野花也很漂亮, 难怪会有路边的野花不要採啦. 可惜的是不知道它的芳名, 有人知道吗?
I went to my father's place this morning. Suddenly I found that just outside the toilet, there are many of these kind of flowers. Isn't it pretty? Too bad I don't knw the name of it. Any1 can tell me?

它的叶子有如葱, 条状形.
I
ts leaves just look like anion leaves, long and narrow.

种在地上, 不到20cm. Planted on the floor, not even reach 20cm.

至少看到它能让我平静. They gave me a moment of peace.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

梦のDream

这是梦吗?
有人可以叫醒我吗?
活在现实里
但很渴望是睡梦中
思绪不停的来
誓不放过
用尽全力
得来一片空白
有人, 可以叫醒我吗?

I can sleep I can eat, but my mind is restless. It's flooding me. Is this just a dream? Can it be a dream? Gosh, I hope it is. Anyone? Anyone please wake me up?

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

我的父亲走了のGoodBye Dad...

人会有一死, 我也经常会想当我的亲人死去时我会如何做. 想归想, 当真正发生时, 那是多么的讽刺. 我想不到父亲就酱的走了, 就是酱, 也没留下什么话.

年30晚, 还没到团圆饭的时候, 我与姐姐买完东西回家, 父亲就心痛坐在外面, 母亲与哥哥在一旁担心的看着. 在24小时诊疗所看了一轮, 为防万一, 就把父亲载到大医院去. 姐姐陪父亲量血压, 而我就去办登记. 戏剧化的, 当我在登记时, 护士跑出来喊 "code blue", 叫登记小姐通知医生. 我看着登记小姐, 她也看着我, 然后她叫我赶快进去.

不会是, 不会是. 我一面想一面跑去. 但在我内心我可感到是的,是的. 只见姐姐哭着看着父亲被抢救, 我只能紧抱着她, 把她带出去. 将近一小时的抢救, 我从害怕, 担心, 希望, 绝望的心情中一直来回打转. 耳边一着传来医护人员抢救的呼叫声, 从CPR, 强心针到电击压,我都清楚的知道他们在我父亲身上干什么.

最后看到的, 只是父亲死鱼般的眼神, 不会起来, 不会说话了. 哭, 我想哭出来, 大声的叫醒我父亲, 但我只能做到的只是让泪水流下来, 发出依依啊啊的声音.

我,哥哥和二姐跪着接我父亲回来, 而大姐从Ipoh赶回来, 要跪着进来, 一切都可在连续剧中看到.

望着家外突然多出的棺材, 为什么和怎么可能一直在我脑海里响起. 泪水也不知觉的流下. 每次睡醒时, 我都想可以的话就酱睡下去, 因为睡醒了所有事情又再我脑海里重演一轮. 为我父亲诵经时, 我要逼自己不想或开着眼睛, 因为一切事情都会很清楚的出现在我眼前.

为什么, 十万个为什么. 但又能如何? 心中挤满了不愤, 不满和伤心. 但又能如何? 上天安排如此, 我只能受了. 母亲身为未亡人, 心身上所受的何止是我的千倍. 我只愿我母亲能放开一切, 健康平安.

Ironic, things can happen just like this, n the worst is ntg u can do. Yes, the worst thing just happened right b4 the cny, my father passed away. I knw my father will nvr come back, but deep in my heart I refuse to accept it. Most of the time I just stare at ntg n my mind is just a blank. If I allow anythings to cross my mind, the whole incident will just play back again. I wish I can shout or even cry aloud, but what I manage to do is just let the tear dropped by my face.

I feel angry, reluctant and sad. But what can I do? Everything is just like normal after my father's funeral. The Earth wont stop moving or the sky will rain in red because of this. I have to go on. But the lost is always there. Anything I can wish now is for my mum to stay strong n healthy.